I'm sad what happened in Boston, as I am sad everyday when thinking about whats happening in our world... Why do people know about Boston and not so much whats happening for example middle east? Why aren't they labeling the poisons they put in our food? There are lots of weird things going on they don't want us to hear. And when someone is rewealing something they do anything to silent them. It's everywhere.. Mainstream media tells us what they want us to hear, not necessary the truth. They are making up bullshit to control our mind.. While we're sleeping they're creating our "reality". The reality is that just 6 gigantic corporations collectively own most of the major mainstream media. Support activists like Julian Assange, Bradley Manning, Femen, Pussy Riot and the Anonymous which I'm sure you're all heard about. Just a mention couple of them but there are numerous of croups &people who are fighting against governments and I hope the number is going to get bigger everyday. I'm not telling you whats right and whats not, just encouraging you to look beneath the surface and questioning everything. Obama mentioned the word "terrorism" couple of times when giving a speech after the boston situation. I don't know whose behind those bombs, they're bad people, but I think the most dangerous people are bank owners and heads of the biggest corporations in the world who wear 10 000 dollar suits and controls everything. I hope all those who lost their lives today in this cruel world will rest in peace and I hope one day this whole world is going to see a day when everything starts to make sense. Our world doesn't need drones or nuclear weapons, what we need is a group hug. Peace

Are dreams doorways to our subconscious?

Do you ever see dreams which just get stuck on your mind? You start to think those over and over again trying to understand them and the reasons you saw them.. You ask yourself was this "just a dream" or has it got a deeply meaning or purpose.. I believe that dreams are doorways to our subconscious which we know very little about. 

There's different kind of dreams but I'm more interested about nightmares.. Everyone knows that some dreams are impossible to explain.. There can be something what you can't describe as a figure but you know it is there, you saw it in your mind.. I've got this one dream I kept seeing when I was younger.. There's something moving faster and slower and moving further away and coming closer again and there's different obstacles on the way. To me it's a nightmare, it's so oppressive and unpredictable. A bit scary at times.. I didn't see the dream for years, but couple of months ago when I woke up, got this really weird feeling when realizing it was the exact same dream I used to see.. Why did it come back? I don't know but it's fascinating that it did. 

I've had some really wild dream experiences.. When I was younger I used to sleepwalk.. It didn't happen that much at home but there's couple of weird occassions from my grandparents old house.. They used to live in this huge house what used to be school back in the old days.. There were three floors and this one time we were visiting there with my brother we all slept in the upper floor.. My and my brothers bed were attached next to the wall.. I just remember seeing a nightmare something was chasing me and then I wake up when my grandfather is shaking my hand under the bed trying to wake me up.. He said that all of the sudden I stoop up from my bed, walked beside my brother and started to scream and move my arms like trying to protect myself for something, and then I crawled under my brothers bed..
The feeling when you wake up from a deep sleep in strange place someone telling that you were standing up and shouting is quite scary.
The other time is really strange. We all slept on the middlefloor. My grandmother always wakes up early so she found me laying on the floor on the middle of the big class room with my blanket.. She woke me up and I walked back to bed.. When I woke up again and we had breakfast I didn't remember anything, not even seeing dreams or the fact that she woke me up and I walked back to bed... Back home in my old room I've woken up for example under the table or in front of my closet with mirrordoors..

I have experienced nightmares where I'm aware the fact that it's a dream and I need to wake up by hitting my head to something.. There has been more than couple of times where I've actually woken up with the same thing on my hand I hit my head on my dream... I've been suffering sleep paralysis quite alot..
                      "Sleep paralysis is a phenomenon in which people, either when falling asleep or wakening, temporarily experience an inability to move. More formally, it is a transition state between wakefulness and rest characterized by complete muscle atonia (muscle weakness). It can occur at sleep onset or upon awakening, and it is often associated with terrifying visions (e.g. an intruder in the room), to which one is unable to react due to paralysis. It is believed a result of disrupted REM sleep, which is normally characterized by complete muscle atonia that prevents individuals from acting out their dreams. Sleep paralysis has been linked to disorders such as nascolepsy, migraines, anxiety disorders and obstructive sleep apnea; however, it can also occur in isolation. When linked to another disorder, sleep paralysis commonly occurs in association with the neuromuscular disorder narcolepsy".

So basicly you can see everything around you, you are awake but you cant move a muscle.. And often you see or feel someone or something bad is getting closer to you and you can't do anything.. Have you ever seen dreams where you feel you're leaving your body and returning it? There has been couple of times where I've been floating around and then started to fall slowly back to my body and I've waken up the minute im "in me" feeling all warm.. It's something that's really hard to describe if you haven't experienced it.. Last night I saw two different nightmares, the first one I don't really remember clearly, just that it had to do something about cave diving and losing everyone.. The second dream has been on my mind the whole day.. Like I said it is really hard to describe dreams but there was me my friends and my family.. On that dream I felt really bad distressed and scary. I commited a suicide by driving to a brickwall by car, I started to float away from my body and everything and I realized that I don't wanna do this I wanna go back but it was too late.. I woke up when I was that far away from everything I couldn't see anything... THATS IS SOME FUCKED UP SHIT.. When I woke up it took couple of minutes to think that whhat the hell is happening  :DDd 

You can say I'm spiritual person, I'm interested about selfawarness subconscious and everything what includes your mind. I don't believe in God, I don't know what is it I believe in, hopefully going to find out someday... I read somewhere that one of the meaning of my name Nadja is "The one who recieved the call of God" 

That's all for now. Peace & Love 

G'day!

Oon ollu superlaiska kirjottamaan tänne.. niinkun arvattavissa oli hah!! keskiviikkoa vietetään meikällä vapaapäivä.. TAAS vaihteeks sataa :) pitäs kiriä muut kiinni nursing kurssissa, eli lukea hitosti kirjaa ja täytellä vihkoa. viime viikko meni lomaillessa. Lähdin norjalaisten Vilden ja Pernillen kanssa sydneyyn la-ke ja ke-ma byron bayhin.. sydney näytti hyvältä, taas!! käppäiltii ympäri kaupunki tytöt ei ollu käyny ikinä joten pakolliset turisti hommat siis! bondillakin tuli pyörähettyä parina päivänä! pari kertaa lounas operabarissa, oopperatalon vieressä siis! ihan huippuhyvää ruokaa huhhuh.. livebändi soittelemassa ja jääkylmää coronaa. kyllä kelpas..

 Muutaman kerran kävästii ulkona ja päädyttiin pahamaineiseen kings crossiin, että tuntu oudolta kävellä taas siellä!! Treffasin Katien ja Betton kanssa muutaman olusen ääressä, jotka tapasin siis yli vuosi sitten sydneyssä kings crossissa original backpackers hostellissa jossa asuin 3 kk, Katien Matten ja Rebun kanssa muutettiin kämppää ja tehtiin roadtrippi sydney-adelaide. tytöt lens sieltä cairnsii meikä brisbaneen ja katie jäi sinne joten oli ihan huippua nähä niin pitkän ajan jälkeen. Katie on graafinen suunnittelija ja Betto syttyny valokuvaukseen joten juttua riitti jokasella, Betto opiskelee oman käden kautta ja mä käyn täällä valokuvauskurssia joten aika vierähti hyvin nopeasti keskustellen, sain Katielta muutaman mielenkiintosen blogin ja sivuston mitä täytyy käydä tsekkaa!

Viimesenä iltana sydneyssä käytiin illalla tsekkaas operatalo ja käppäilemässä satamassa Vilden kanssa.

Sydneystä lähettii keskiviikko aamuna byron bayhin joka on kyllä ihan ehdottomasti paras paikka missä oon käyny. Tämä tais olla 3 kerta kyseisessä paikassa ja kyllä siihen rakastu taas uudelleen.. Pieni surffi "kaupunki" naiset merenneitoja miehillä pitkä tukka parta ja kaunis naama.. päädyttiin samaan hostelliin missä olin aikasemmin ollu, riippukeinuja pihalla ja 200 m rannalle pikku "mettän" läpi.. ihan paratiisi.. tällä kertaa en kauheesti kuvia ottanu joten jaan teille pari kuvaa mitä otin viime vuonna!

Byron on paikka jossa ranta on päähomma, ei oo elokuvateattereita tai muita häsellyksiä, eikä myöskään mäkdonaldsia josta olen todella tyytyväinen, siinä vaiheessa kun se sinne rantautuu on "pyhä" sotkettu.. joten jos sataa ei kauheesti häppeninkiä ole. mutta kyllä me aurinkoakin saatiin..

Byronissa on muutama clubi mutta ei ihan hirveesti kiinnostanu, mun mielestä byronin idea on live bändit isteskelu frendien kanssa ja kalja. joten perinteinen railway bar ja beach hotel oli meijän makuu enemmänkin! livebändi taustalla ja lämmin yö.. <3


Kotiin tulin siis maanantaina ja suoraan 1000 sanan esseen vääntöön siitä miten elektroniset laitteet vaikuttaa ihmisten kommunikoinnin laatuun.. tuli siinä sitten pieni hermoromahdus mutta onneks mulla on ihanat tytöt täällä jotka auttaa jos on paha mieli tai muuten vaikeuksia kouluhommissa tai jossain <3 oon niin onnellinen että oon löytäny ihanat ihmiset ympärilleni kelle voin puhua ja ketkä puhuu mulle jos on puhuttavaa. Janni lisäs kuvan byronista missä me neljä Janni Kippo Matte ja minä oltiin tasan vuosi sitten juhlistamassa matten synttäreitä.. tuli kauhee ikävä ystäviä ja kotia.. iskän tsemppausviestit auttoi "olet rakas" :) täälä sataa ja sataa ja sataa, pieni kyllästyminen ilmassa! mulla siis vapaapäivä johon sisältyy opiskelua mutta nyt kurnii massu niin paljon että lähden paistamaan kasviksia ja lihapullia ja keittämään perunoita.. jos nyt seuraavaan kirjotukseen ei näin pitkää taukoa tulis.. haha.. pitäis valottaa teille vissiin vähän noita mun kursseja ja koulua enemmän.. siinä saralla on semisti turhautumista ollut koska en ole vieläkään 100% mitä haluan opiskella.. muilla ohjelmat käynnissä jo tai koulussa kotimaissaan ja täälä vain vuoden.. mutta siitä lisää myöhemmin..


kettu kuittaa.. Peace